I was recently promoted to management….yikes. I have never had any desire to be a manager. I really don’t have a lot of drive or ambition. I am all about quality of life. So, how in the world did I ever get promoted? Well, I am a Virgo and I like everything to be neat and orderly, which applies to my job as well as home. When I am at work I try to make things go as smooth as possible. I work really hard on my relationships with my management and my peers. If I am going to a job I am going to do it right. I rarely complain. Whatever work is given to me, I find a way to get it done. No matter what obstacles are thrown my way. Hence, my manager promoted me. I considered saying ‘no’. My husband encouraged me to say ‘no’. He has been down the management path and wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. But, I said ‘Yes’. I thought, ‘this will be good for me’. ‘I need to step outside my comfort zone and try something new.’ ‘When an opportunity like this is presented to someone, it is a gift and I should just go with it.’ Now I have 10 people reporting to me and all the responsibility associated with it. Now I am saying ‘I am in over my head’. ‘I have no idea what I am doing.’ ‘Can I request a demotion?’ I just read an article by the author Michael Cunningham entitled ‘A writer should always feel like he’s in over his head’. I am thinking maybe that should apply to everyone. If you never get in over your head how will you grow? Everyday I remind myself of these things: I will get my arms around this new job. I can only do what I can do. I can only know what I know. Don’t obsess about the things I have no control over. Most importantly for me, don’t take things personally. This new job is all part of my journey and I need to take deep breaths and just go with the flow.
June 2009
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